Back after an absence

I am back after an absence - changing jobs sometimes involves more u-turns than expected.

This Easter I have been thinking-musing-praying

Father- what exactly am I participating in?
In the bread and the cup
In the life and the death
In the death and the resurrection
In the people and the mission
Exactly what am I participating in Father?

Father- what exactly are you participating in…
my mission?
my family?
my friendships?
my work?
Exactly what are you participating in Father?

Are you participating in…
My thoughts
My habits
My heart
The work of my hands

Exactly what are you participating in oh Holy One?

In our friendship of Fearful One
Do you lift me up
More than I tear you down
Do you move me forward
More than I hold you back?
Do you open me up more than I shut you down?

Father forgive me for hiding among the baggage
And protect me from believing that I am impressive
Protect me and call strength out of me
To resist
Turning to things that destroy
And serving the destroyer

Father forgive me for I am a man of unclean lips
And I dwell among a people of unclean lips
And my eyes have seen the king, the Lord Almighty